I wish my hunger and cravings for sugar and carbs would go away. Maybe my body produces to much yeast. Does anyone have suggestions? I am really depessed because my life seems to be stuck in the same place. Stuck in Pain. Here's is a poem:

I wish he saw me and looked at me. The outer layering of my body makes me sick. If  only I could be that person that I strived to be 2 years ago. If only I had power over my body and strength in my soul. Then maybe he would notice me and want to hold me and love me. Maybe he would wrap his arms around me and hold a fraile waist. Looking back I had almost reached my goals, two years ago the 92 pound body and that thin face and clear skin it was angelic and simple. Those days are hard to get back to because the past was crushed my parents that made a stand and put me away in a hospital to gain weight. Now if is harder than ever to regain what I had. College and life looks bleak. I only want two things, my thin body and him. This person that I have had class with since last year and he hardly notices me. It only makes me think if he knew me the year before when I was 92 pounds that he would notice me.

Today was bad. I was craving food all day. I like binged at breakfast and had pancakes, egs and dounets. I am so depressed. Then for lunch I went out with my mom and got a greek lunch and chinese for dinner. I am so sick of myself. I am starting my period and that makes things worse. I got extensions in my hair today, and my head is killing me. This is the first time I have done it and it hurts alot. I wanted my hair to be very long. My parents are also driving me crazy. My dad is such a jerk and he always wants to hang around my mom even though she is divorced. He is so annoying! I am just really depressed with myself. Does anyone have any suggestions on what I should eat? Sorry I go on and on- But I need support!

I hate myself so much right now. I feel like a failure. I tried to stay away from carbs and sugar because a friend of the family told me that strong addiction to carbs and sugar may be from a to much yeast in ones body and she said aguaflora a product that can be purchaced at the health food store would help. I have been using it for 4 days and yesterday I was super hungry and binged on cookies and pizza- like the worst foods. I am sick of cravings and very depressed!

Please help Me! I WANT TO BE A MEMBER OF THE PROANA SITE AGAIN BUT I HAVE BEEN BANNED. i AM SORRY IF i ASKED TO MUCH PERSONAL INFO. I really need the support. Can someone help! 

I am sorry if I have offended anyone with asking for emails. I am depressed today because I am always hungry and livejournal said they wanted to discontinue my account. I really need the support. Please Can I stay in this community!

I am so depressed today. I am sorry if I hurt anyones feelings for aksing for email. I had a bad thankgiving I was hungry all day. I can't seem to lose a pound. It makes me deeply depressed. I used to be a pro at losing weight until my parents got involved a year ago and put me in the hospital. I can't seem to control my hunger. I also had my period this week. It was so nice when my weight was low and I didn't have my period and my complexion was clear. I also got a nasty email from someone on this site. I didn't mean to hurt anyones feelings. I just need support. I read on the internet that low levels or seritonin in the brain can cause an increase in card and sugar cravings.

Thanksgiving is coming and it is scary. I hope all of you are having a good day. I love having a support group that is going through what have. I am depressed about my 140 pounds. I used to be 92.  Does any one take prozac. I have be on it for almost 2 months. Does it help with hunger? What does it make you feel like?Thank to my parents putting me in the hospital a year ago I hate my body Alot! If you girls don't already know I am 19 from California. My email: a.domark@yahoo.com